;’(

I don’t wanna pick up your call, cause I don’t want to hear your voice. Not because I’m angry, its the love i have for you too much, and i don’t wanna feel hurt.

I send you those messages because I’m disappointed, and i just wants you to treat me better and care for me. But you doesn’t seems to get it, and yet you pissed off.

I thought I’m the luckiest girl, cause i never ever thought that this relationship would start. The most happiest thing will leads to the most hurtful thing. I really don’t know how to express my feelings. Everyday im thinking, why am i so sad almost everyday? Even when im with you. Is there something lacks in you? or me? I just cant figure it out, im pissing off. Sometimes it really makes me hate love too. I can’t tell you about this too cause i know you won’t listen. I’ve said before, what hurts you the most? the ones that are the closest to you couldn’t understands you. Nobody understands me. I really wanna knock myself out, and end this life game. It sux. Why is the world changing so tremendously? Even you people! I hate it! Why can’t we remain the same forever? Why must we change so that people will get hurt? When Im troubled, who can i talk to? When I’m feeling low, who can cheer me up? When Im crying, does anybody know? Don’t know! Cause I don’t want people to know that Im weak, I wanna be strong. But I can’t! Im a loser, cause I could only rant on a computer. I hate me. All i want is just you to cheer me up. Where are you when I’m sad? You’re my medication know. ;( Did you really care bout me like me stalking everything bout you? Did you even read my blog? Where are you??? ;’( I need you now.

I guess I’ll be fine tmr, better time.

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